When You “Love-Hate” Your Job

I have worked at my place of employment on and off for 8 years. I started my Junior year of High School. It’s really the only place I’ve worked at for more than a few months. I love this place. I know this place. I have given this place “blood”, “sweat”, and tears. Real tears. I’m comfortable here. The thought of going to work any where else is…well….scary for me. BUT should being comfortable at your job keep you there if your job doesn’t make you HAPPY? I try to be happy here. Every day I go in with a positive outlook and positive thoughts but every day I leave thinking “THANK GOODNESS I’m going HOME!”. It’s not just a couple of times, once a week, or hardly at all that I think this. It’s EVERYDAY. The only thing GOOD I can think about this place anymore is, “Well at least I like the people I work with….most of them.”


So what do I do? I’m only 25. I don’t have bookoo’s of work experience. I have a 4 year degree, but not in anything special. This place is going to pay me better than anyone else will until I get more experience under my belt. But I’m literally MISERABLE every day. I’m not doing anything I’m passionate about. I want to pull my hair out well before lunch. I don’t want to be unhappy every day. I want to enjoy life. I want to wake up every day and be excited about what I do. Well….almost every day. I know nothing is perfect.


So what have I been doing? Researching. Looking at open jobs. Nothing that’s much different than what I’m doing now. At least that I’m qualified for. Maybe I should be my own boss? But what would I do? I’m not good at MAKING anything and I’m not crafty so selling home made stuff is out. I can’t bake or cook so that’s out. I’m not organized or great at planning so that’s not a good idea for ANYONE. What am I good at? Making people smile. But what can I do with that? I’m a people person but where can that take me? Something has got to start flowing here soon.


When I figure my life out, you’ll be the first to know. 😉